Baby steps of a fighter

The anxiety is overwhelming.  Waking every morning with a nervous stomach, mind racing.  If I have a dream about another man, I wake up anxious and I can't seem to shake the feeling.  Yes, some people say it's underlying of other things that are wrong.  I'm just not seeing that.  I'm a faithful woman and I truly believe that anxiety is the devil.  It grasps onto the things we cherish the most and tries to tear them apart.  As I've been doing so much reading about anxiety and the lives of the people who live it, it makes me realize that we are strong.  The ones of us that choose to fight, share, help.  We are strong.  It may not feel that way in the moment, but we are.
Also, as of late, I have been reading a lot about nutrition for people who struggle with anxiety.  Let me preface, I'm not a doctor.  Please do you own research.  That being said, I have taken a long and sugary look at my diet.  Wow.  And sugar is anxiety's enemy.  Well, knowing that is good on many levels.  We can adjust.  We can learn.  We can become physically as well as mentally healthy.  Now, nutrition alone will not solve your anxiety, but having a good diet can certainly help.
So, starting Monday, I'm taking a challenge.  The 31-day sugar detox.  The first three days look like torture.  Nothing but lean proteins (meats) and non-starchy green veggies. Three days no Girl Scout Cookies.  Oh wait - 31 days at least without Girl Scout Cookies!  Ugh...and there are Thin Mints in my freezer right now.  Bummer!
So, on this day - one of my worst days as of late - with a stomach in knots, mind-a-racing, headache, tired, nauseated, I choose to take this challenge.   Maybe I'm crazy, I mean, well, that's a given - Hello! no girl scout cookies.  But I can do this.  One day at a time.  Just one day at a time.  Jesus spent 40 days in the desert with satan in his ear...tempting him...but it's our actions of Love that show who we are.  Not our thoughts.  Those are even different that our beliefs and what we know to be true. In this case, I'm showing myself love by choosing this challenge.  Pushing satan away by choosing love and goodness and health.  Choosing the people that stand and support us through our struggles.
Now, if you're not a Godly believer - that's okay.  Fight this for the love of yourself and your family. To make yourself stronger.
I've taken many steps at different stages of this.  This step is for my health, my confidence, my mental clarity, my loves, and my life.  It's a sacrifice.  But by suffering and not fighting, I'm sacrificing my daily life and my happiness.
So there it is.  Hold me accountable.  Go ahead.  I'll be reporting.  I'm sure the first 3 days are gonna be torture.  The sugar leaving my system.  The irritability and agitation and fatigue.  Oh wait - I already feel that way...what's another three days, right?!! Right! (gulp)
~B